the assassin within

remembering...happy new year!

2010-01-04T07:14:00.000-08:00

i miss blogging. i got tied up with business and my dresses that i forgot to look around, take pictures like before...

i miss this place.

wander if tinay still writes and bay dan still scribbles in his notepad.

i wander if kai still talks about skinny jeans and her chucks...

naa pa mo?!! i miss u guys!

2010...

2009-08-06T01:37:00.000-07:00

I have fallen in love
With the same woman three times
In a day spanning nineteen years
Of tearful joys and joyful tears

I loved her first when she was young
Enchanting and vibrant, eternally new
She was brilliant, fragrant
And cool as the morning dew
I fell in love with her the second time

When first she bore her child and mine
She’s always by my side
The source of my strength
Helping to turn the tide

But there were candles to burn
The world was my concern
While our home was her domain
And the people were mine
While the children were hers to maintain
So it was in those eighteen years and a day
Till I was detained, forced in prison to stay
Suddenly she’s our sole support
Source of comfort, our wellspring of hope
On her shoulders fell the burden of life

I fell in love again with the same woman the third time
Looming from the battle her courage will never fade
Amidst the hardships she has remained
Undaunted and unafraid
She is calm and composed
She is God’s lovely maid

title: i have fallen inlove with the same woman three times
artist: jose mari chan

i so love this song, even then when my dad played this over and over again at home when i was still very young and jose mari chan's songs hit like a wave at the charts..
but when i learned (just recently) that this poem was made by Ninoy Aquino for his wife President Cory Cojuangco Aquino when he was in prison during marcos' dictatorship, it made me love this song more, and it made me admire former president Cory and appreciate her more not just as the icon of democracy who fought for our freedom, but as a loving and supportive wife, a graceful good mother and a strong, courageous woman . thank you Tita Cory and goodbye. you deserved all the respect and love that you have recieved. you will always remain in our hearts...

you made us proud to be Filipinos. "L"

Cory Aquino, 1933-2009

kapunkap!

2009-07-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

i had a good time in bangkok, thailand. kapunkap my dy! or thank you! and oh yeah! we watched transformers on i.max in bangkok! lingaw kayo! wa ko kasabot sa ilang national anthem last full show. hehehe

i'm almost there...

paglambo... padayon

2009-07-21T08:04:00.000-07:00

i just won 2nd place on the on-spot photo competition last 50th Araw ng Lanao Celebration (july 1-4, 2009). I dont have any slr camera, so i just borrowed chen's digi cam, and w/ a few enhancements, i got a 5thou price for this. woohoo! of course i had to spend 900 pesos for the 12x18 size print and 1,300 for the frame, but it was all worth it... :)

i'm almost there...

2009-02-19T20:46:00.000-08:00

" Life is a daring adventure or nothing..."

-keller

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tagaytay

2009-02-03T00:39:00.000-08:00

to sharon and robert. thanxie!

photo by: polky

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2008-11-30T18:17:00.001-08:00

the white enemy

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2008-11-29T06:19:00.000-08:00

goodbye to iris and balloons.
goodbye.
goodbye...

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2008-11-06T20:11:00.001-08:00

"november"

paying a visit at the yellow corner.
all souls day 08 - the cemetery.

(cellphone) macro shot.

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Aloha

2008-10-29T19:56:00.000-07:00

took this shot when we had our feeding at the coastal area of Aloha Tubod, LDN.

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sem break

2008-10-08T23:28:00.000-07:00

pink flowers
scooping feet
drifting fish boats
afternoon umbrella
wait....
I'll charge my camera's battery

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nookie

2008-09-26T01:52:00.000-07:00

there she is... consuming half of my space... and I always end up curling at the edge of MY bed... grrrrrr.....

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2008-09-14T05:23:00.000-07:00

the day i thought he died,
was the day his heart was
born again...
and mine...
me...
quietly bleeding...
subtly breaking...
paralyzed...
gasping...
slowly losing it's breath...
and
totally free.

labels: articles of love during war.
suwat ni pamc
photo: curlytops

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2008-09-04T01:12:00.000-07:00

I dont know if I should rain my gratitude to the low lying traitors ****for having my body lose 6 pounds in just 2 and a half weeks without doing any rituals. it just shed off just like that. thanks to trauma and stress they have caused all the people in Lanao del Norte... at least they did something errrr... ok to people like me who definitely envy skinny girls with thin arms on tv. BRAVO! for at least a job well done!

woohoo!

a 5 million reward for your head is not enough for all the atrocities.

Rest in Peace...

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2008-08-28T20:15:00.000-07:00

reposting my dog's photograph gazing at the car window one rainy day when we took him to his veterinarian for an emergency check up 2 yrs ago...
he died a week after this shot.

labels: remembering oreo

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ironies

2008-08-27T23:01:00.000-07:00

1. gud guys go crazy over easy girls.

2. gud girls are taken by ungrateful guys.

3. the most loyal are those being cheated on.

4. cheaters are beg by gud ones to stay.

5. the most worthy of good relationships are the ones that aren't taken seriously.

6. those greatly hurt by their greatest luv end up being players.

7. opportunities come when u least expect it.

8. wen ur ready and wanting sum1, chance never presents itself.

9. the bf and gf materials are d ones left single.

10. u cant stop urself from loving sum1 u shouldnt but cant force urself 2 luv sm1 ur better off with.

11. those hu give the best advices r the ones outside the relationship.

12. and those in a relationship can give great advices 2 oders, but cant seem to handle their own...

;p

labels: teks

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2008-08-26T03:19:00.000-07:00

long walks home
sea shells at the sea wall
dogs day out
motor scooter
texts
tennis volley
love sets

cross courts...

labels: 365 days

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2008-08-24T06:41:00.000-07:00

"missionaries are a bore...
why don't we get wet and do it on the lavatory,
or thrust me on the wall, by the window instead... "

posting one of bai dan's imaginations into art

labels: moments in a window

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2008-08-23T19:12:00.000-07:00

payed dyes pesos (ten pesos) per game
chasing two balls and giving it back to the players for at least 15 minutes
scolded sometimes for slow pace
asked to buy ice waters after the game at the nearby tindahan
demanded
taken for granted

what would you do if ball boys were on strike
or had their breaks to frolic at the sea wall with the other kids their age
and you are playing tennis with no one
chasing the balls and returning it for you?

miserable.

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enakei fad

2008-08-22T21:48:00.000-07:00

I spend hours just looking at enakei drawings and downloading them. I love the water color/airbrush media. it's cute, love the fashion, love the pink colors, love the skinny look and love the drama!

www.enakei.com

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MILF attacks - the worse days of my probinsyana life

2008-08-19T02:24:00.000-07:00

i was awaken by several text messages at around 5am in the morning yesterday (Aug 18, 2008, monday). the message tone beeped non-stop so I knew there's something wrong going on, I knew the unusual text messages at that hour could be an emergency. so I got up quickly to get my cellphone, it was my boyfriend, he repeatedly sent a message to wake me up (he has no load to call me but was using unlimited texting), but I never expected it to be horrifying. the text message was "beh, ga boto2x na dri gisulong nami sa mga m.i.! (beh, there are loud gunshots everywhere, the milf are coming!)" anxiety immediately dawned on me-- I feared something bad might happen to him, I feared the milf might be in our town any time from now (my bf's town - kolambugan is just a 15-minute ride from here), I feared for the lives of my love ones, worse I fear death.

I called my bf to check the situation and when he answered his voice was shaking and he was running for his life and I heard several gunshots of armalites in the background. I was shaking. I woke my parents to alarm them about the situation (last saturday and sunday, there were reports that milf might attack some of the municiplities of lanao del norte, militaries were deployed in marawi and iligan but oversee kolambugan and other towns next to it) so mom called my cousins... dad got up to listen to the news in the radio -kolambugan was attacked by milf troops and were burning several houses and school buildings. they killed civilians and militiamen. they ransacked stores and pawnshops. I was slowly processing what was happening I never thought this could happen to me.

I packed my things in one backpack just incase the rebels would invade our place. we wouldn't panic like this if our house isn't located at the highway... sentro- the business district. if ever the milf will attack this place we will be one of the many hostages like those captivated in kolambugan. (we resided just right above our 2-storey 1940's house. the ground floor as our tindahan. a typical chinese store like those in colon or divisoria.) It was kind of a relief for me that my bf always texted and updated me of the situation. there were times he was unable to text me, there were moments he would text me that they (the civilians who went to the coastal area) were hunted by the troops. he told me he saw them, some of the members are still very young (15-17), some of them are girls. He told me they killed civilians and he saw dead bodies at the highway later that day. we were exchanging messages most of the time so that we will know what's the situation and so that I won't worry about him and his safety. I kept on praying.

at around 8:30 am, we received a text messages that MILF will attack Tubod (adjacent to our town-baroy). news scattered like wild fire. some of my friends and relatives evacuated to ozamis city by land and by boat. we planned to evacuate to ozamis, but we heard news the barge was stopped and land trip is very risky from ambush, so we decided to stay at my aunt's house just a few meters away from the hot spot. towns became ghost towns before lunch time. we stayed there overnight, my dad and my uncle were left at our house because they wanted to, it's hard to leave it empty.

people were exchanging infos, my bf stayed in kolambugan in spite of rescue operations and evacuation plans. I was really stressed out that day. my eyes were already very heavy but I couldn't sleep, the people of tubod were already getting ready. civilians who have their own guns were at the streets for defense. several brgys in tubod at the mountain area were attacked that night. intelligence reports, news were driving us crazy and I was so worried about my dad, my uncle and the dogs being left at our house. I didn't noticed I was already fast asleep, when I woke up, it was already 4:30 am, my heart pounded, it was a dreadful hour, I was expecting war and gunshots, I slept. my mom woke me up at 7am, she said I have to drive them off back to our house to open our store. I couldn't believe I woke up safe and sound. we went home. the town was still bare. no classes today and banks didn't open.

my bf visited me today. he told me what had happen yesterday. I made him go home early because of the on going situation. I am ready for an all-out-war, it's much better that way than giving mindanao to the MILF. fuck the government. and may MILF burn a hundred times in hell.

up to now, lanao and iligan city is still on red alert. dipolog city retrieved a bomb planted at their bridge just this morning. this is driving us crazy. how could the government not order an offense assault when there were damages already and innocent civilians killed. how could they give mindanao to the MILF without asking the residents' opinions first? why would they allow muslims to dominate this land when the fact is the population of muslims are only 10% of the total population in the entire country? ancestral domain claim means giving our lands to the muslims. ancestral domain claim means a bigger problem and a chaotic mindanao.

I hope and pray that this traumatic crisis will be over and everything will be back to normal. God bless the people and the used to be peaceful land of mindanao.

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2008-08-17T06:31:00.000-07:00

I got so tired of the long dry ponytailed hair so I resorted into cutting it short.
short but it is still dry. hehe. I always blame my dry hair on mom. liwat ko niyag buhok. the texture is like the typical elementary classroom broom ... so I had to have it relaxed every 6 months. but since I studied nursing (where hairs are always doomed inside the hairnet) and play tennis almost everyday, I now find hair relaxing a waste of money. so for the mean time, I just have to live with the short dry hair until I'll graduate next year.
ok ra?

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2008-08-17T06:00:00.000-07:00

leaving the soaked clay court one rainy day and just staying at this seawall to relieve disappointment...

thank God for places like this.

photographed by my bf.

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2008-08-13T05:53:00.000-07:00

oh boy! ever since I saw the new mini-cooper-inspired suzuki swift 2008 last night while watching the filipino version of the koreanovela My Girl, I couldn't get the cute little car out of my mind anymore, the truth is my heart was suddenly fixed on it, so assuming I could afford it, I googled it on the net half praying it wouldn't go beyond the 1M price. and true enough the 1.3 litre engine 4WD gave me high hopes. it's about 800 thousand bucks. so I asked my mom about it, I even told her that we'll just sell dad's old car so we can buy a new one, but as expected she reluctantly said no. she said I should earn it myself... hahay. well I guess I just have to shake this thing off before I could think of a dirty scheme like robbing the first valley bank just right beside our house. hehe... so there goes my dream car gone as swift as suzuki swift! ;p

I'll just buy a mini cooper when I'll be inserting IV's in London or better yet New York as soon as I pass the board exams. wink! wink!*

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2008-08-11T07:39:00.000-07:00

I was looking through not-so-old photographs and I realized there are a lot of things that I missed.
I miss the port and the sea coast
I miss that big log and river that I had my shots in kolambugan
I miss having picnics
I miss taking pictures
I miss being an artist
I miss the sunrise and sunsets
I miss flapping my feet in the water and just sit around all day hearing it splatter .
I miss diving from a big rock right into the blue sea.
and I realized that I miss one person that does everything she wanted...
I miss one happy sunny girl that appreciates the details of
every day...
I miss that girl standing right in front of me in the mirror...

I miss everything about me...

:(

photo: egay and I in landing, kolambugan.
labels: missing bliss

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5 day blues

2008-08-09T04:37:00.000-07:00

since wednesday I was temporarily rerouted to bed-the dining table-and back to bed. I was terribly ill until sunday morning, so mom made me skip my weekend classes (thank God! then I don't need to worry about dad getting mad at me on missing school). It started with a simple tonsillitis and the next thing I know, fever started. and then the next day, I had running nose and sore throat that led to dry cough the following day, which resulted to influenza. flu had hit me. I've never felt this weak my entire life... well I suppose I've experienced a few, but it's the first time I was into thinking "tiguwang nagyud ko, di man ko mag ingon ani sauna" it was the first time it ever crossed my mind.

so maybe this is what they call aging...

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2008-07-31T07:02:00.000-07:00

kalilangan. a 25 minute-ride from home.

labels: Loving Lanao Del Norte

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smashing

2008-07-24T20:15:00.000-07:00

yes! just in time for the beijing olympics, dan (www.sigbin.com)was finally able to make my request- a tennis racquet sketch from one of his beautiful rough collections. and here it is! and so I colored his gift to have the "other" version (I hope you don't mind danilo)of it. thank you bai dan! now I can surely use it on my games in beijing...wish me luck! teehee! ;p

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2008-07-23T20:37:00.000-07:00

a sketchy pose at one of toon city's famous alley...
ummm... time square?
hehe...

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the 2.9 million dollar photo

2008-07-19T20:29:00.000-07:00

while watching nat geo's Genius of Photography, this photo had my fingers googling on the internet. last febuary 14, 2007 this single photographic image was auctioned at Sotheby's which started at a price of 1 million U.S. dollars and was sold to a particular collector at a whooping 2.9 million U.S. dollars making it the most expensive single photograph ever. Part of the reason for its value and rarity is that it is a very early example of colour photography, produced using the autochrome process. Contributing to its high price is that there are only three known copies in existence; there are two in museum collections in addition to the print sold at auction in 2006.

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Which mythical creature is most like you?

2008-07-19T18:39:00.000-07:00

siren

This mythological creature is a sea deity and lured men, often to their deaths. You are close to your friends, but can be dangerous to your enemies.

photo: deviant art

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2008-07-14T18:08:00.000-07:00

when I have nothing left to offer this beautiful sunset but beers and a cellphone camera.

baroy dakak

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2008-07-14T00:56:00.000-07:00

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

I dedicate this song to ama (my grandmother) which if I could turn back time I'd spend all my time with her on her dying days (I didn't know those were her last) ...and I just took it for granted.
this is also for our friend boting who died last week of leukemia. I texted him 2 weeks ago , he didnt texted back and i didn't know he was severely ill til I heard the news that he already passed away...
:,(

this is so far the best song that I've heard from mariah carey. I fell inlove with it the first time I heard it on myx.

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2008-07-09T00:21:00.000-07:00

febuary 26, 1993
friday

dear diary,
sorry for the long wait. I haven't write you for so long because I'm so busy with my friends like Bethel and Virgie, they always convincing me! well so much about that----- by thursday, we have no class because of the 7th year EDSA revolution (people's power, -- democracy of the people) I convince my friends yesterday of going to anywhere because "this will only happens oftenly". first... we plan we three will meet at Tiu's residence then rash to crystal studio. thursday... "is bingex there?"...I ask to her father "oh...just knock there". then afterwards we talk then weplan to go first at the department store. "lets go first to gaisano" then we go to crystal.

it was really a good day for me I was not wasting that day but...

I was wasting my money! Im broke!

melody
icepop
shade

one of my daily elementary journals written on a little purple diary that I found while rummaging through old boxes of scented-gone-plain-stationaries. gisunggo ko oi! ;p
pasensya nas namasa... lingaw kaayo ko.hehe... tumbling! wa juy binisaya bisan usa noh!
haha!

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2008-07-05T08:38:00.000-07:00

the risk of having my camera fall right into the water was worth it...

"kalilangan"

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2008-07-01T22:22:00.000-07:00

yellow green and bluE! the sky's as lovely as you! hehe! I'm baaaaackkkk! done with those hibernating days. done soiling around and tagging my days with bz-doing-nothing. thanks to kai and bogus poet - tinay, they were damn so encouraging. hehe! told you guys I'm not good at this stuff... wa ko'y masuwat. so I'll just make this as an itsy bitsy snaps page. as for today, I have none... been too lazy latEly. I spent days watching the cEnter court, green grass of wimbledon on tv, and tried to play tennis at least once a day to loose those fatty and acidic food I had put into my mOuth non-stop. wapa koi ligo! bye 4 now! Y

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scooter and sea...

2008-05-14T21:55:00.000-07:00

Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,

The cigarette ash flies in your eyes, and you dont mind, you smile,
And say the world doesnt fit with you.
I dont believe you, you're so serene.
Careening through the universe, your axis on a tilt, youre guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you...

motorcycle driveby
third eye blind
photo: ramil tapere (thank u for being patient w/ me)

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deviant fave #1

2008-04-04T05:35:00.001-07:00

lust...
and only those sheets spinning
in soap and water have witnessed
this passion...

they can only...well...
bubble.

photo by: karma one

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2008-03-29T07:18:00.001-07:00

boredom converted to a pain in the neck.
(i usually get back and neck pains whenever I marinate myself in the mainframe).

labels: desktop shot

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2008-03-25T05:19:00.000-07:00

having trouble reading what's in his mind? here's a dose of "what was he thinking" med to aid that little confusion. wink!* wink*

1* Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them! (oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE).

2* Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3* Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4* Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5* Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

6* Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

7* Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

8* Guys get jealous easily.

9* Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

10* Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

11* Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

12* A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

13* Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

14* Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

15* Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

16* When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

17* If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

18* If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

19* When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

20* When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

21* Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

22* A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

23* Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

24* Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

25* Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

26* If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

27* Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

28* When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

labels: copy/paste. got this from pearl's blog.
photo from deviantArt

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2008-03-23T23:18:00.000-07:00

* Mood: Agony

*

*
I ache to look at you speak flowers.I long to brace you and we’ll shatter into feathers. A playful kid threw a giant paper airplane
above us.
*
*
Maybe, there are no seas under your sky. And maybe, maybe you got tired of flying my kites.
*

~

.
DO YOU MISS HIM/HER/THEM?
DO YOU MISS YOUR SELF?
DO YOU MISS BEING THE WORLD FOR SOMEONE?
.

by: klit-shy. deviantArt.
photo: me.

tinay! I've read your journal and it's the coolest! your words speaks every photographer's thoughts - the zest for and interest in life. reliving moments. once again, thank you for using one of my photos. I love your writings. actually, I envy it... you truly are gifted.

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2008-03-23T22:37:00.001-07:00

wa lang. just felt like posting... kay murag wa nakoy dagway sa akong blog. hehe!

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2008-03-23T05:07:00.000-07:00

1.Three Names You Go By:

mai2x, mayang, siwagkang(dona isabel dorm days...it's a long story. wink*)

2. Three Things found in your
schoolbag:

- hmmm... cellphone, compact, ballpen

Love Survey: You must answer every
question TRUTHFULLY!!

[01] Are you currently in a
relationship?
- yip!

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?
- yes, from my mom, honestly. hehe

[03] What is your all-time favorite
lovestory movie?
- wild hearts can't be broken. it's an old flick. I saw this movie when I was in grade 6 i think. and I've been looking for a DVD of this film.

[04] Are you inlove right now?
- yeah, I think so, if this is what "inlove" is.

[05] Do you believe that everyone
has a soulmate ?
- yeah I guess... someone told me before that when you look at the stars, wandering where could that person be, that special person is also doing the same thing, right there, at that very moment.

[06] What's your current problem?
- hmmm... kapoy nag skwela

[07] Have you ever had your heart
broken?
- oh yes! a hundred times with the same person.

[08] Your thoughts of online or long
distance relationships?
- naaah... won't work. hago, kapoy, sakit.

[9] Have you ever seen a friend as more
than a friend?
- hupas nani. but yes. and it was very complicated.

[10] The person your with right now,
do you want to spend your life with?
- yeah...maybe. :)

[11] How many kids do you want to
have?
- 2. a gurl and a boy... and both should be tennis players. hihi!

[12] What is/are & your favorite
color?
- green and pink.

[13] Who are your celebrity crushes?
- josh hartnett melts my heart. :D

[14] Do you believe you truly only
love once?
- yeah, I guess so. :)

[15] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse
just died, would you get re-married?
- haha! no way!

[16] Do you believe in love at first
sight?
- oh yes! and whirlwind romance too!

[17] What song u want to be played at
your wedding?
- nah daghan kaayo! but I Do by 98 degrees would sure be on the list.

[18] Do you like anyone?
- yes...i like and love my boyfriend. ;p

way lingaw. got this from cookie's friendster post. ;)

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2008-03-21T05:11:00.001-07:00

he loves me...

not entertaining the chillimansi pancit canton popping from what seems to be every side of my brain, instead I took this opportunity taking shots of this beautiful tiny flowers while waiting for our game.

of course, I was with my man. :)

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2008-03-21T03:17:00.000-07:00

my grandma told me that if you miss someone, you just call him through a "banga" and he'll be running home or knocking on your door sooner than expected...

I've done that before...right at this very old water jar, but I can't remember to whom I was calling, and I don't know if it worked, I couldn't remember...

labels: good friday.

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2008-03-21T02:51:00.001-07:00

Taken from The Voice of Talamban magazine way back college years.

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2008-03-20T20:20:00.000-07:00

butuay. jimenez, mis. occ

labels: reminiscing

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2008-03-17T23:31:00.000-07:00

nanginhas

photo: me. seawall, baroy.

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tidbits of thanatos

2008-03-13T17:38:00.001-07:00

*
I resurrected when
we kissed on a hammock with the empty
night as spectator.

.
You are the scar on my knee.
I am aware that you have a story but I
do not know the plot.

^
The street kid who wore a flower girl dress
died due to hunger because your city mayor
hired too many maids and bodyguards.

=
If ghosts have unfinished business, then
my heart is haunted.

*
The murder of distance would mean
I, writing haiku on your bareback as you
sleep after we made love two inches from
the door.

+
Danger: Accident Prone Area.
Die in my thighs.

=
We were butchered in-betweens but
you taught me how to breathe through
your lips.

*
History celebrates the death of Hitler,
I celebrate the birth of your tyranny over
my slumber.

^
You are too wonderful to die today.

Too
beautiful
for
suicide.

* we all die somewhere

thanks mai for the preview photo.

- reposting modern patadyong's thoughts. thank you klitshy for gracing my snapshots... for believing in me.Ü

photo: me. bee farm, bohol.

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2008-03-10T20:12:00.000-07:00

spent tuesday having a lunch date picnic at the seawall. I've been dying to do this since like forever... so it only took me minutes to pack things and foods from the table and drove off to bay-bay with my guy. we're not alone though... we have ants joining our date... and I gave them chocolate cake and shrimp shells! :D

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2008-03-08T16:32:00.000-08:00

"Rain rain go away, come a gain another day, little mai2x wants to play" (with two fingers at both hands doing an open-close-scissor-like errr... thing). mao daw nay sumpa sa uwan ingon ang mga tiguwang. I mean the scissor thingy (ako2x ra ang chant...hihi!) and i do this almost everyday, everytime I play tennis because it drizzles almost every afternoon here. darn! seems like there's no summer happening here in lanao...excited na unta kos summer feeling oi! tsk! :(

photo: selojRamu.deviant art

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2008-02-23T03:38:00.000-08:00

hmmm... since I just got back from being blog-lazy to still-not-so-in-the-mood-to-blog, I just wanna brag about my happy hearts day. kadaog ko'g 2,000 pesos that day. hehe! I betted 5 pesos on these lucky corny numbers 143 and 314 (la lang. 143 lang, rumble ang 314 since it's v-day) so I got my 2,000 cold cash tag baynte2x pajud that day. balato ko tag 100 sa friends, so I was left with 1,500. firing squad ko adto. I turned down my bf's plan of having a picnic, and didn't made him come... because i don't date on v-days. mawi nlng ko pag saturday. I skipped 3 classes after lunch and had a lunch date picnic with tatog at the car. we parked at an unused agora, drove off to brig bro and had 2 bottles of beer, joy ride dayon after, and park along a vast ricefield. sulit na. I love dates like this... I find it friendly and romantic. so there goes my post valentines date. teehee!

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2008-02-21T18:33:00.000-08:00

haaay... back to the world of blogging. I'm still doing some revisions, and I can't even remember how to change the color of my tag board. kapoy nag blog, but the almost-summer-breeze excites me. aaaaaahhhhhh.... summer's almost here! the heat. the wind passing thru the dining area window made my heart jumped. reminiscing the old summer days. BEACH! BEACH! BEACH! roadtrips. tennis. oh I can't hardly wait! but for the mean time I'm still bumming around the hospital. 1 more week to go then we're off for this month. and then I can start planning where to go during the tanning season! wink!*

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2008-01-24T22:26:00.000-08:00

duty.
watching the australian open.
texting my boyfriend.
thinking about marriage.
thinking about settling down.
thinking about becoming a nurse.
thinking about going abroad.
missing my boyfriend.
craving for watermelon shake.
kaon ug saging ug ginamos.
wanting to play tennis.
killing the time.
playing with the dogs.
waiting for 5pm.
another day at the hospital.

i miss you baby...

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going gaga over daniel henney.... sigh*

2008-01-21T18:42:00.000-08:00

this is half korean half british actor daniel henney who played the role philip in the romantic koreanovela spring waltz. haaaay... maka bugto'g panty! so move over beckham! it's time to drool over this hot asian guy that's making my monday to thursday nights sizzle! hehe...y mopalag!

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2008-01-21T17:49:00.000-08:00

jan. 20 and 21 was our town's feast. spent my 4days watching commercial and spending time with my best friend-my boyfriend and my friends...

friday:
played tennis with girl friends arianne, gg and marina. then watched modern dance competition with tatog. went to noy peping's wake with tennis players for the last night vigil.

saturday:
class, then went home at lunch break (cutting classes mi ni aug2x hehe!, watched and supported my boyfriends match (pildi!), helped clean the house in preparation for the fiesta.

sunday:
bathed the dogs. spent afternoon at the tennis court watching and betting.won all the games I betted. :) went to fritzie's had drinking spree with my barkada and tatog. then went to chen's for dinner...

monday (fiesta):
kaon dri sa balay. invited a few friends, then went to the tennis court to watch tennis commercial. went home with my boyfriend. had dinner.
ukay2x with mom and mama ely.

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2008-01-14T08:06:00.000-08:00

mabuang kos spring waltz! waaaaah!!!!! grabe ka kilig!!! . it's the only program I watch on primetimes. haaayyy mabuang kos kakilig!

dri na oras maglagot akong uyab kay makalimtan nako.hehe!

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2008-01-14T05:18:00.000-08:00

His tears
Your eyes
Thirty seconds to apologize
You'll give him one more chance
Just like the time before
But he already knows
You'll give 100 more
Until that night in bed
You'll wake up in a sweat
You're racing to the door
Can't take it anymore
I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned, so I call it a lesson learned
My soul had returned so I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned

labels: used

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2008-01-11T05:07:00.000-08:00

To be wronged is nothing unless you continue to remember it.

Eddy, Mary Baker. American Founder of Christian Science

photo from deviantart

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love the skin!

2008-01-07T04:48:00.000-08:00

I made my self my own cellphone theme... teehee!

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Baroy Tennis Club party.

2008-01-06T04:29:00.000-08:00

awarding ceremony was held last night for the winners of the 2007 tennis tournament... and after receiving cash and having dinner... we danced the night and beers away!

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year end...

2007-12-31T06:11:00.001-08:00

thanks for sharing 2007 with me...Ü

to another great year ahead! (crossing fingers*)

HAPPY NEW YEAR

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so old ...

2007-12-30T06:25:00.003-08:00

-1940's mirror hanging on the wall at the dining area... once when I was sitting at the dining table I saw someone pass by... and I swear it's not an optical illusion....

p.s.
ingon leslie mura daw ko'g si angel locsin ngari... wehehehe! that's why I posted it.haha!
ang mopalag insecure! ;p

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ending the year with a BANG!

2007-12-30T02:49:00.000-08:00

after weeks of playing under the scorching heat of the sun, battling with different opponents on the clay court, red bulls, pharmatons, sunblocks, cursing, lucks, disappointments, tons of guts and lots of fighting spirits, finally our tournament has ended this afternoon...
CHEERS! to my partner and I... for being champions (girls category) of the 2007 Baroy tennis tournament! a good year end and a fresh good start in the year of the rat... 2008.

I'd like to thank my partner Marina for a good team work. for bearing with me, and for playing hard during days when I was weak... thanks for being one of the best partners I had. to my ever so patient coach and boyfriend tatog who has been my inspiration all through my games and my life, thanks beh... you're one of the reasons why we made it.

to my classmates-barkada and my C.I who always understands when I am late (hehe!) ngita pakog sapi para ice cream...

to my mom who understands even if both of my parents hated my being so passionate with tennis... thanks.

and to you "bossing" who guided me and made us this year's champs... thanks muchos! I owe it all to you... :)

may the year of the rat be much better than this year... luckier... and happier... ;)

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LANECO

2007-12-27T08:21:00.003-08:00

- taken outside lanao's electricity provider...

labels: hanging out and taking shots.

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2007-12-26T17:44:00.000-08:00

Yes! we finally moved to the championships (of our tennis tournament - doubles). we battled yesterday for who will fight for the 2nd and 1st. thank God we won straight 2 sets 6-1, 6-0. we lose from this team a week a go, luckily we were able to regain... I'm keeping my fingers cross for the championship game this afternoon. wish me luck! ;) wink!*

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text*

2007-12-25T00:56:00.000-08:00

wina: Gd mrning ding! Gd luck :)

ako: wko dayn ding ky bilar.ugma na. hehe

wina: Ic.. Bsaha lng ngbalik ugma, hehe..

(text ni wina nako early this morning para sa akong tournament.)

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christmas rush...

2007-12-24T04:33:00.003-08:00

16 hours duty. labor watch. waiting for cases. I took this shot of my classmates while we were taking a break after assisting a delivery. i love this shot... it showed the real picture of strong willed people... patient... student nurses.

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2007-12-23T06:11:00.000-08:00

grunt* my feet hurt from buying stuff this afternoon. it was raining, so my tournament which was supposedly scheduled at two o'clock was postponed due to the weather, so boylet and I went to ozamis to do some shopping. we've been planning to buy presents for each other this x'mas... (he bought me a cute bronze doll shoes and I bought him a pair of jeans), mom also asked us to buy a few presents for her friends. I bought her a pair of shoes and a polo shirt for dad. haaaay kapoooy kaayo! went home pass 6pm na. had to travel by barge... had fun! ;)

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christmas wish... christmas list...

2007-12-19T21:30:00.000-08:00

for my christmas list:

a pair of skinny jeans
a pair of ipanema or havaianas bronze flip flops
2 blouses (kamiseta, bayo, or plains n prints will do)
that puma white with gold racer back top I've been crushing on
nike or adidas tote bag
white nike cap with the simple black check logo
babolat racket

christmas wish:

swertres winning combo to buy all those stuff! ;p
no really... I wish to love more, and be loved more... well I guess I've experienced it now... so I might as well wish to let it stay longer... wink*!

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2007-12-19T21:14:00.000-08:00

last saturday night after a long day of mind boggling exams we decided to hit the road and went to Tangub city...the city of x'mas lights.

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2007-12-19T20:50:00.000-08:00

- beh... di na noon ko k2lgon...ahak...

>haha. y man?

- i mz mai2x!!

> atot! awwwww....nalanay ko. amaw ka beh. ur so sweet... i miss u too amaw...

labels: text & heartbeats.

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2007-12-11T18:38:00.000-08:00

Why are blankets made?

For us to escape somewhere and be one with our nakedness.

For us to leave traces that would tell
the next morning that last night,
we made love and exchanged “fuck me please”.

For us to write our names in unseen inks
as we use our nose in breathing the same oxygen,
for us to count love stains
and argue who owned those just for the sake of being childish,
For us to force each other to come near
no space in-betweens, none… not even an inch gap,
For us to hide from the sunrise
abandon time and extend the miss you nights and see-you-soons

For me to yearn for you when I am alone
and
for you
to

fake my presence in your solo dawns.

written by klit-shy. thank you for allowing me to post your works and let others know how good you are in thoughts and translations. keep writing...
photo: deviant art

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2007-12-11T05:34:00.000-08:00

that day I went to your town and spent one lazy afternoon exploring the old landing where small private planes used to land (it was now deserted)... and you took me to this beautiful place, you took me here, to this river because you know my heart would skip and I'd burst out into smiles and grins ... you were right. I fell inlove with it ...

I fell in love with you...

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2007-12-10T03:38:00.000-08:00

I spent half of my day hitting balls with my guy. I really miss him as much I miss playing tennis so I asked him if he could come. we played tennis for hours in capitol with jun2x, atan, galen, and arfel and master...it was raining, but we didn't stop playing. so glad I was able to spend time with him... playing tennis and just goofing around. I miss this...

tnx 4 coming beh!

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2007-12-09T04:24:00.000-08:00

class from 8am-12pm.
then went to ozamis with grace.
went to city engineer's to watch tennis commercial (just in time for my bf's game. he won.)
went home with ate celia and tatog at 7pm.
won 2 bets. lose 1.

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featured deviation #6

2007-12-07T07:08:00.000-08:00

year twenty seven...

photographed and edited by me. model: me. on my 27th birthday.

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2007-12-07T06:41:00.000-08:00

seawall sunset. outside eric's house...

tnx for always being here 4 me beh... ;p

kamuriching. took one shot of thses kids... wako kaila ani nila. lingaw man. wink!*

kinilaw w/ spices...

umm..kinilaw gihapon.hehe

spent my birthday eating spaghetti with my family in the afternoon and went to eric's wit my friends para mag sugba2x during dinner... tnx guys for spending my day of aging with me...hehe!

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2007-12-05T08:38:00.000-08:00

12 na! ehem!

happy birthday to me!

haPpy BirThday to me!

happy birthday happy beerday....

happy birthday mai mai!

heeeeeeee!!!

my boyfriend gave me a birthday card on my birthday. he wanted to buy me something but I told him not to... not yet. I wanted it to be a swap. I like the Ipanema slipper that chen's wearing, a little costly than havaianas... and he said he'd buy it for me... and i'm planning to give him a christmas present too... I don't know what he likes, so we agreed to buy it together and we'll swap... so we're on a money saving contest... because we're both jobless. tnx beh! na touch ko's imong gisuwat... ;p

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2007-12-04T05:11:00.000-08:00

friday:
played tennis commercial at the capitol with our visitors from bukidnon. gg and I won (may nlang naka 100 ko...hehe), then went straight to the hospital, wore my scrub suit asked my C.I. if I could split after a few hours of duty, then went staright to tubod for tennis commercial.

saturday:
hmmm... asa man ko ani? spent the day d.i. at school attending class. then went to tubod with chen, aug, harold, van and lani and tatog. played tennis commercial with my guy vs. aug and harold... won twice. singkwentahay, so naka 100 nasad ko...hehe.

sunday:
went to kapatagn after class... went out after taking 2 quizes, wa nako naminaw sa discussion... nag ukay2x haunting with tatog (bought 2 cool tees, si tatog pud wa palupig), then watched tennis commercial...
ate lunch at sir raul's wit ate maricel and xtine and the rest of the gang
betted.
won some...
lose some...

monday:
kapatagan fiesta
went to winah's house for lunch wit' chen and shobe and the gang wit tatog...
kaon nasad tiwas ila aug2x...
watched tennis commercial after lunch wit chen, shob, alna and panal...
betted...
lose...
won...
kaon nasad dinner, it was lola barbie's birthday.

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2007-12-02T04:52:00.000-08:00

They say there's a place
where dreams have all gone
They never said where
but I think I know
It's miles through the night
just over the dawn
on the road that will take me home

I know in my bones
I've been here before
The ground feels the same
though the land's been torn
I've a long way to go
The stars tell me so
on this road that will take me home

Love waits for me 'round the bend
Leads me endlessly on
Surely sorrows shall find their end
and all our troubles will be gone
And I'll know what I've lost
and all that I've won
when the road finally takes me home

And when I pass by
don't lead me astray
Don't try to stop me
Don't stand in my way
I'm bound for the hills
where cool waters flow
on this road that will take me home

Love waits for me 'round the bend
Leads me endlessly on
Surely sorrows shall find their end
and all our troubles will be gone
And we'll know what we've lost
and all that we've won
when the road finally takes me home

I'm going home
I'm going home
I'm going home

photographed and edited by me. while going home from playing tennis.

lyrics: going home. mary fahl and the october project

it's about time...

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2007-11-29T17:40:00.001-08:00

I miss my guy. I miss playing tennis. and it's making this day, bonifacio day - a supposedly no-work-no-class holiday more dreadful. I'm now dying of envy at the thought everybody will be enjoying playing tennis commercial tonight (our visitors from bukidnon will be arriving this afternoon) while I'll be trap waiting for cases and watching someone deliver a baby or assist minor operations at the provincial hospital from 6pm til 2 in the morning...arrrrggghhhh! this is so not fair! :(
lamia baya ikyas oi! huhuhuhuhuhuhu! di gyud ko ka accept oi! hahay...

2007-11-29T17:22:00.000-08:00

I keep looking back
A lifetime back
Across the desert
In a desert where no one can explain
You tell me God is dancing in the rain

I can hear the echo
In a maze of words
A lonely voice behind a door
Can you hear me calling
From a world away
A lonely voice behind a door

I keep looking back
Traditions back
Across the centuries
In a century where no one can explain
You tell me God is dancing in the rain

I can hear the echo
In a maze of words
A lonely voice behind a door
Can you hear me calling
From a world away
A lonely voice behind a door

As I stare ahead
A dream ahead
Across the ocean
Cross an ocean where there's nothing to explain
You tell me God is laughing in the rain

I can hear the echo
In a maze of words
A lonely voice behind a door
Can you hear me calling
From a world away
A lonely voice behind a door

a lonely voice
Mary Fahl and the october project

- when I feel sober from days of feeling miserable, this is one of the songs that help me rejuvenate. i love her songs...

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webcam shot

2007-11-29T16:50:00.000-08:00

goofing around with sazzy...dad's super spoiled girl.

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2007-11-29T00:53:00.000-08:00

my first case...and first time to have ever witness a complete delivery... mura jud pud ako'y nanganak! haha! sakto jud si kai, nice ang feeling na kulba. it was an overwhelming feeling seeing the baby come out. I was assigned to wipe the excrement/stool of the mother... kung mo utong sya, mogwas man pud. ok lang basta maka kuha ug case. gloves bitaw! hehe.

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2007-11-27T18:29:00.000-08:00

Got this one from akosikai's blog - only fools die... Its really nice so I asked kai if I could repost it.

A conversation with Desire..

ROSE: Have you ever been in love?
DESIRE: You might say that.
ROSE: Horrible, isn't it?
DESIRE: In what way?
ROSE: It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "Maybe we should just be friends" or "How very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way to your heart.
DESIRE: How picturesque.
ROSE: It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that.
Especially not love.
I hate love.

-- The Kindly Ones from the Sandman Series by Neil Gaiman...

"love is a noble act of self-giving, offering your trust, faith and loyalty. the more you love the more you loose a part of you yet you don't become less of who you are... instead you end up being complete." - anonymous. got this from an old scrapbook I've been keeping for years.

love is one delightful feeling and I pitty those people who didnt risk to fall because of the mere reason that they fear to be miserable. lami gyud ang feeling na mainlove ug e love... lami mahigugma. hehe... cornyha oi! haha! ge nalang gud! ;p

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featured deviation #5

2007-11-25T18:54:00.000-08:00

Laudromat rock

by: Trixie Pixie

-one of my fave deviant art photo. I so love this pic. so vintage and cool...

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2007-11-25T18:20:00.000-08:00

My partner Marina (yes. that's her real name and she lives along the coastal area of our hometown) won our first game of the tournament yesterday straight 2 sets 6-3, 6-1. we played under the scorching heat of the sun so we gave our best to end it as early as we could. I'm happy with my partner and comfortable playing with her because shes a good netter as I am good at the baseline. hehe! so now were keeping our fingers cross for the next rounds because were really aiming for that trophy... ;) (wink!*)

after playing I went to Maranding with my parents and cousins para mamiesta and after eating lunch with them at our friend's house gapa drop ko nila mommy sa tennis court to watch the tennis commercial there... sus. timing kaayo my guy's playing vs. cotabato... bantog ra wa na naka reply! it was one of the best games yesterday... it was a close fight. mura ko'g di ka ginhawa sa kakulba! hehe! thank God they won... I stayed there till 5:30 pm... watching other games and spending time with my guy...Ü

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2007-11-22T08:30:00.000-08:00

I don't like to do anything right now... I've gone out of ideas what to post... and I don't feel like blogging my first experience in the delivery room watching the bloody vagina of a 23-year-old unmarried mom the other night during our ORDR duty. I can't call it my first, since I was seconds late after the baby came out... so I haven't seen a complete delivery yet... maybe I could talk about it some other time when I get to handle such cases.

rain rain come again! hmmm... I even like the long rainy days so much which I hated the most since I don't get to smack tennis balls on the clay court... but the past few days was different. I was feeling sluggish since that day I lost my fave babolat racket and still am feeling that tardiness right at this very moment. I got a text from the president of the Nazareth tennis club in cagayan de oro this PM: "gikan ko sa tennis court this am. wala pa nakita imo racket. ako pang gipapangita mai" which i know I wouldn't be able to retrieve it back. I'm feeling hopeless... and this back pain isn't helping! just my luck. I'm just keeping my fingers cross for my game this weekend... wa koy praktis and I'm using my old titanium head racket which I'm not used to it's weight anymore... it's heavier compared to that pure drive I've stupidly forgotten at the court.

hahay...life. I know ...I should get my acts back... this is killing me...bit by bit.

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2007-11-20T19:37:00.000-08:00

sa among tindahan:

customer (mama gapalit ug bondpaper sa iyang anak): naa moy ban piper?

mommy: naa. short? long?

customer (galibog): asa may taas ana???

mommy (nakuratan sa pangutana): LONG!

customer (murag na uwaw, ningisi): ay...hehe. kanang long...

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2007-11-18T22:24:00.000-08:00

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on,
our troubles will be miles away.

Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.

Through the years
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself A merry little Christmas now.

~ listening to coldplay's version of this one... oh how I love this song, makes me think of lonely winter romance, sleepless in seattle and autumn in new york and realizing how lonely christmas will be this year with everyone going out of the country, and my close cousins won't be able to leave their work... they can't come home... and I lost my valuable babolat racket... and I can't still buy a new one because I'm so broke... I wish I could go back to those days where my problems are as shallow as how to own that new kitchen toy set or how to convince mom to buy me that cash register that I was dying to have and drooling everytime I passed by that bright display rack in gaisano... oh I wish I could go back to being a kid where troubles were a whiz. I miss those days.

ahhhhh... cool breeze. rainy days. christmas is near... have a merry yulletide season everyone... ;)

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2007-11-17T05:52:00.001-08:00

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2007-11-17T05:43:00.000-08:00

I hate marshmallows...
I hate myself...
wait...
I hate myself more than I hate marshmallows...
I lost my tennis racket.

broke
I hate myself...

where on earth can I find a cold 8 thousand cash to buy a new one? :(
I hate myself!

last july I also lost my k750i cellphone...hahay...
i hate marshmallows...

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2007-11-13T23:06:00.000-08:00

passion makes the world go round. love just makes it a a safer place - ice T.

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2007-11-13T05:35:00.000-08:00

just got back from our 3-day trip in cagayan de oro city for a 2-day friendly tennis commercial. gamay rami'g daog. halos pildi. paets... but tennis was just half of it... I had the best time with my friends. and my boyfriend...

- ate tata and jun2x... tnx for the treats!

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2007-11-09T05:47:00.000-08:00

yey!!! I got a kasalo collectible cap! cge ko'g hope to get one... mygani hinginum ug royal! haha! can't wait to claim it...heee! ;p

- I really like the new cap design it's so hip. reminds me of che guevara, artwork and stuff. cool.

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2007-11-09T00:34:00.000-08:00

chen: nang indi, walay lami ang mga nanulod na housemates sa celebrity edition 2 noh?

nang indi: bitaw. ngano naa mana si Baron diha na artista naman na?!

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2007-11-08T05:34:00.000-08:00

fighting back drowsiness between hours of a lazy afternoon... so I made skul girl keeki. I really don't have any idea. it just popped out from my sleepy head... so I ended up sketching it. I named her after my cousin khay-khay (it's pronounced kiki here in the province). I've resisted snoozing off alright, so now here comes super headache! arrrghhhh!!!

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2007-11-06T22:55:00.000-08:00

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU*
1. mai mai
2. mayang
3. siwagkang (dorm days)

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR
LIFE*
1. dec.6
2. dec 25
3. and jan 1

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE LOCAL BANDS*
1. Bamboo
2. parokya ni edgar
3. barbie's cradle/hungry young poets
what happen to the new alternative rockbands nowadays? purya gaba... they more compete on O.A emotive videos than concentrating on good music... purya saway!

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN BANDS* V
1. goo goo dolls
2. third eye blind
3. coldplay!
4. mr. big (way mopalag kung akong dugangan)
5. better than ezra
6. breathe
7. everything but the girl
9. escape club
10. spandau ballet
ah! tsk! I'm still not contented with ten... ge nalang!

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY*
1. play tennis
2. picture taking on beautiful sites
3. travelling with my family and my fave cuzs.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS* 8
1. I'll be there - escape club
2. return to me - mary fahl and the october project
3. hands to heaven - breathe

THREE PERSONS YOU MISS RIGHT NOW*
1. my boyfriend Y
2. my cuz mic2x
3. my cuz che che

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO
RECEIVE* e
1. roddick's pure drive babolat racket
2. a gift check worth 10,000 pesos
3. the 100 dollars my cuz promised to give me hehe!

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR
HOLIDAY* J
1. santorini, greece (bantay lang kaaaaa!)
2. paris
3. wimbledon ( I hope i could still see hantuchova, federer, the williams sisters and rafael nadal by that time)...

THREE GIRL'S/BOY'S NAMES* m
1. fiona
2. una
3. hhmmm. can't think of names right now...

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FASTFOOD*
1. Mcdo
2. KFC
3. red ribbon
it's been months and months since the last time I ate something in these fastfoods.

THREE SCHOOLS YOU'VE ATTENDED* G
1. Misamis Union High School, Ozamiz City (kinder to highschool. it sucks!)
2. University of San Carlos-TC, Cebu City (College - my golden days)
3. and currently in LSSTI, LDN (BSN 2nd Courser), ang kilid basakan!

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. coke
2. fresh milk (non-fat)
3. red horse... fave gyud? haha!

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
my tennis bag:
1. rackets
2. shoes
3. clothes

THREE PERFUMES/COLOGNES:
1. clinique happy heart
2. my boyfriend's cologne
3. johnson's regular (the green one)

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. green
2. pink
3.

THREE EVENTS YOU'RE LOOKING
FORWARD TO:
1. oath taking (hehe!)
2. tubod's tennis tournament
3. baroy's fiesta

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which of the 7 deadly sins is yours?

2007-11-06T20:06:00.000-08:00

GrEed

took a fun quiz this morning and I landed to this sin which fits good to the picture I made few months ago. I guess I'm greedy. no. really... I am.

there was an earthquake as I made this post... i think it lasted for about 15 seconds. kulbaan ko gamay dah! hooo!*

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